managed.

2006-08-25 9:38 a.m.

i learned to linger, to not
concern myself with what was coming, to accept
(sometimes)
the control that i was lacking, or to reform,
reshape,
increase in my identity. i became
a landmass, an ocean, pushed
by gravity, acted upon forcefully, motivated
to movement. my bones, my muscles,
they were aligned for dancing - i will not
deny them what is theirs by right.

i taught myself strength, submission, criticized darkly
when alone, and, peering down
into my own language, i found a home.
i will take risks, consider the results. i will be
faulty, measured up against others. i will not sway,
will not dwell on what is wanted, will move away,
will leave my suffering forgotten.

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