Peaceful.
2005-07-18 3:41 p.m.
i have spent the last few weeks reassuring old commitments of their places, my arms can't measure the space that i have given, a smile in the direction of wrong doingafter all,
it's only my feelings
self-discipline, i opened all the windows and uncapped all the pens in my house, letting my limits go crossed by debris and bad timing, a thrity second section of life passed by me
and i awoke shivering, my prayerful forms in sleep prostrating, our heads to the carpet to listen
to the neighbors going at it again, a fight over his alcoholism, and these things are created, are shoulders sloping in restful acceptance
of life wearied heads - can we claim to know the potency of compliance, of unsent letters - one word can change a lifetime
so guard your tongue and name it Peaceful when you think to speak, there are sharp words waiting to scratch against the sheets in angry moments, to go forgotten, to remain unreached
pull over to the sidelines, i want to remember this. i want to remember how it happened. you know
i forget everything, that i put all of my effort into accumulating memories, into filling the closets only to make them off limits
after all, it's nothing to speak of.
after all, these are only my feelings.