space between us.
2006-08-20 3:33 p.m.
i amfinding the doors, and self-examination
leaves me shaken, unable to differentiate between the pain in my muscles and the soreness of my heartbeat. i have never been
forceful, direct,
able-bodied.
make decisions, a long time coming up to this, though i won't admit it. i have made a place, a person who will fall victim
to
the chance of connecting, who will
sacrifice, be unhappy, will shift
storm up and leave without notice - all
of the unpacking, pulling back, i can't manage, i am weak
though quiet.
if i try sincerity, i falter on my feet, poor little thing, little bird, unready. but ready now, you see
this change has a history behind it, from birth, it is
a long time coming - but now
i want to see some purpose, have some faith in moving, and i am faithless, unsure of the nothing that approaches.