you should be ashamed.
2005-12-30 9:00 a.m.
i have realized (earlier this morning,while i was
standing in the bathroom -
i get caught up in thought standing
in bathrooms more oftern than usual,
lately)
that what unifies a person with his cause is persecution
and chasing an unattainable goal, such as
let's say
a woman
is a way to feel more righteous for each indignity he suffers, with each
phone call
that goes unanswered, with each letter
that he writes her,
claiming her full name in public.
you should be ashamed, to have used me
so readily, as a means by which to affiliate
with allies and religions -
i made her my wife through self-created marriage, sanctified
by my own decision, and then
she left, the wicked creature
but i'll still love her.
i will love her forever.