beset.
2005-10-15 5:48 p.m.
collapse, if i am a sea of fluctutions,then this is a tempest -
and, so, beset, i took my language home
in envelopes that needed signatures
acknowledgement and validation
just to get your notice, i'm upset
and taking shortcuts
level me out, little pill, when i wake up
be my savior, kicking in the stomach
a long act of prevention, keeping ghosts
under the surface
i know this happens
that we will have higher expectations
of ourselves and our surroundings,
and live in disappointment -
unable to communicate our distress
each man a line with plans already laid
to rest, well-meant,
without a refuge to take
from his own views
we will marry our middles in strange ceremonies
our souls, ready made, will come running,
get even at the beginning, and end up ahead
profess your faith in one breath
and your cruelty in the next-
i know that this is what i should expect
instead, i came close, telephone wires
hugging onto their poles
in quiet hope, redemption
a one word excuse for cowardice and short signals
i've been so straight forward
because i thought that you weren't listening.